omfg #2
WHY AM I SUCH A SPED?! why do i not think before i do things?! WHY DID I NOT REREAD BEFORE PRESSING POST?!i'm gonna go dig a hole. and hide.
my name's not carla anymore. i've changed it. too shameful. x
omfg.
i just died.
help me.
well, today was a seriously topsy- turvy day.gosh, i wish sometimes i could just take back everything i did and said. or even thought. sometimes, i wish that i was older, (for more than one reason, with some of them being that i would be able to think clearer, and commit myself better.)
i'll tell you something?
i really like him. i like him so, so, much. it hurts when i see other girls around him. i hate it. then i get all huffy and pissed for like the next hour. and then i want to cry.
could someone please tell me what's wrong with me?
i can tell my friends think i'm overreacting, and slightly crazy, but they don't get it. i have never, ever felt like this. but it's not that hard! all i want, all i want right now, is him. is that really so much to ask for?
that's all i want.
carla. x
drama?
hello. i am finding less and less stuff to write about my life. my life is so boring; i need some drama!but if i ask stuff like that, it might come true, and i might regret it. :o
ehh; i haven't seen him for almost two weeks! believe it or not, i am missing him heaps. i like him so, so much. it's crazy. :( what's wrong with me? i hardly know this guy, and i am totally obsessed with him. i mean, do i have some sort of emotional dysfunction? maybe i just have too many emotions and i have to find somewhere to let them out. i mean, it makes sense; a lot of stuff has been happening recently. but in this way? at some guy i hardly even know? crazy hormones.
i think this is my life's drama.
carla. x
going through a phase.
oh my. TOP COMBINE! more later; when i am feeling not so faint. but jay is still my forever love.
carla. x
wtf.
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CARLA. x
picture this!
i particularly like the second photo.
more later.
carla. x
can i have this dance?
take my hand, take a breath
pull me close and take one step
keep your eyes locked on mine
and let the music be your guide.
won't you promise me (now won't you promise me, that you'll never forget)
we'll keep dancing (to keep dancing) wherever we go next.
it's like catching lightning, the chances of finding someone like you
it's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do.
and with every step together, we just keep on getting better.
so can i have this dance? (can i have this dance?)
can i have this dance?
take my hand, i'll take the lead
and every turn will be safe with me.
don't be afraid, afraid to fall,
you know i'll catch you through it all.
and you can't keep us a apart (even a thousand miles, can't keep us apart),
`cause my heart is (`cause my heart is) wherever you are.
it's like catching lightning, the chances of finding someone like you
it's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do.
and with every step together, we just keep on getting better.
so can i have this dance? (can i have this dance?)
can i have this dance?
oh no mountain's too high enough, oceans too wide,
`cause together or not, our dance won't stop.
let it rain, let it pour,
what we have is worth fighting for.
you know i believe, that we were meant to be.
it's like catching lightning, the chances of finding someone like you
it's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do.
and with every step together, we just keep on getting better.
so can i have this dance? (can i have this dance?)
can i have this dance?
pull me close and take one step
keep your eyes locked on mine
and let the music be your guide.
won't you promise me (now won't you promise me, that you'll never forget)
we'll keep dancing (to keep dancing) wherever we go next.
it's like catching lightning, the chances of finding someone like you
it's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do.
and with every step together, we just keep on getting better.
so can i have this dance? (can i have this dance?)
can i have this dance?
take my hand, i'll take the lead
and every turn will be safe with me.
don't be afraid, afraid to fall,
you know i'll catch you through it all.
and you can't keep us a apart (even a thousand miles, can't keep us apart),
`cause my heart is (`cause my heart is) wherever you are.
it's like catching lightning, the chances of finding someone like you
it's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do.
and with every step together, we just keep on getting better.
so can i have this dance? (can i have this dance?)
can i have this dance?
oh no mountain's too high enough, oceans too wide,
`cause together or not, our dance won't stop.
let it rain, let it pour,
what we have is worth fighting for.
you know i believe, that we were meant to be.
it's like catching lightning, the chances of finding someone like you
it's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do.
and with every step together, we just keep on getting better.
so can i have this dance? (can i have this dance?)
can i have this dance?
i cried.
i finally did it. i let it out. i let myself cry. after so long of hurting inside, i cried. i cried for myself first. then i cried for them. then for the person i couldn't have. then for myself a little more. i cried for reasons i couldn't even understand. but it felt a lot better than having it all inside. i cried so much that i felt a little dizzy. maybe it's lack of oxygen, or something.i need some sleep.
carla. x
fascinating.
hi :) today was vaguely interesting.and what happened, that made it so interesting? well; i'll say it was mainly the afternoon. the day was my ordinary bludgy school day, that may i point out, i totally FAILED.
after having a slightly argumentative conversation, i took FIRST CARRIAGE D< and i will mention that i screamed a lot in that period of around 25 minutes. firstly, it was because i almost bashed into a scary drunk guy, and the second time was because i flashed quite noticeably, and this time it wasn't the WIND. D: how embarassing. we got off at beecroft; with me feeling slightly violated, but kind of sad. :(
but i cheered up considerably on the bus, seeing as i had something (or someone?) nice to look at. :D well, the rest of the bus ride passed in a flash, with the highlights of it being christine almost crushing a poor (or not?!) chelt to death, and me smiling, laughing, and blushing a lot. lovely. and did i mention that i saw MUCH TOO MUCH MALE FLESH? D: i'll recount:
the bus jolted.
christine kind of swung to the left, but was holding the pole. managed to stay up.
some year 10 normo fell on ANOTHER year 10 normo.
me and christine and gen :o'ed
year 10 normo that got fell on grabbed the other normo. pulled his shirt up. (note: christine, gen and i got the BACK view of this)
me, christine, and gen :O'ed even more. too much flesh!
year 10 normo that got fell on grabbed the other guy's belt. attempted to pull it? or maybe take it off? D:
me, christine and gen ROFL'ed.
year 10 normo that fell got up. pulled down his shirt, and looked embarassed.
me, christine and gen ROFL'ed more.
what a crazy bus ride.
but life is a bit crazy sometimes. you must deal with it.
carla. x
hates and a day.
hi. i haven't posted for quite a long time! well, more like three-ish days.i have decided some new things to add to my hate list:
i hate cameron diaz.
i hate keeping secrets that make me want to cry.
i hate people that pretend they don't care.
i hate that stupid, scary normo that keeps evilling me in the morning.
but most of all, i hate it when it hurts.
i hate a lot of things. it's stupid, i know, but its true.
NOW, on a happier note; today was a rather entertaining day. LUNCH was quite funny :) i looked at the phoenix, found some people i knew, and ROFL-ed my head off. then sylvia and tanya stole my crusts. sylvia is developing quite a fondness for them! :D
is there something interesting about my crusts? i mean, they're liikee, high fiber, normal bread crusts. maybe it's just meee! :)
mm, did i say that we now officially own a cafe? no? well, i'll say it now.
WE OFFICIALLY OWN A CAFEEE! how awesome is that? ;) i can now have free food to my easy access every afternoon! talk about saving money.
i think i'm mood-swinging.
carla. x
screw this.
oh goshyy; won't you look at the time? it's a facking 11:09 PM!hmm, let me predict my future. tomorrow morning my mum will yell at me; i will reluctantly drag myself out of bed, and say DAMN, because my hair that seemed GREAT today will have had a horrible transformation when i slept. it will be flat, and flicking up at the bottom. i will force myself to eat something similar to tasteless nutella on tasteless toast, and i will most probably fight with my dad in the car, a result of neither of us sleeping very much. then, i will attempt to study a penno, but give up, because my brain refuses to THINK.
then i will spend an hour and a bit running around in my connies, playing netball. i bags GA.
then i will fail maths.
then i will cry.
wish me luck.
carla. x
credits to myself.
pretty photos make me happy. ah, the small pleasures of life.carla. x
give me something to believe in.
hi :) let's see, there is nothing much to say about today. it's 12 noon, and nothing very significant has happened that is vaguely worth putting up here, unless you count putting crumbs all over my work, sneezing a bazillion times and getting a sore throat, or attempting to clean up my desk.not a very productive day so far.
hmm, i'll say yesterday was slightly more interesting, though a tad more depressing. yesterday started out well, until a certain FRIEND told me some news that made the rest of the day seem... pointless. it's crazy, sometimes how a little something can just turn your whole world upside down. why can't the people you need, need you back? like charlie brown said: "nothing takes the taste out of peanut butter like unrequited love."
i spent the rest of the day in a confused little bubble of my own, trying to understand what all these emotions i had never felt before meant.
on the train, i came back to earth with a jolt. thank you, invasion of the normos.
goshhy; there were so damn many of them! and i don't believe cityrail has ever heard of the A/C, would it be possible to suggest it? and it felt rather strange, not getting off at penno, and instead getting off at beecroft. apparently the bus from there to towers was faster. PFFT. the one day we decided to use that route, THE BUS WAS LATE.
how bad is my luck?
all in all, maybe not the best two days in my life; yesterday and today.
please, give me a sign.
carla. x
first post!
hello! first post; how exciting. well, recently quite a few of my friends have started blogging, and just today, i found out how much i think. i'm surprised at the capacity of the thoughts in my head, and i just need somewhere to let them out.i mean, do other people think this much? do they get a bazillion questions in their mind everyday? maybe they do. there are some memories that i never want to remember, but there are some memories that i also want to keep forever. how can your mind manage to keep all these memories in it? what if you forget some of them, the ones that are truly important to you? maybe that's why blogspot was invented.
too many questions.
carla. x
