what do i do ?
i love you so much.but she wants you, and i want you too, in different ways.
she wants you to love her back, and i want you to always be there by my side; a caring friend, a shoulder to cry on, and someone that'll bear-hug me when i'm sad.
you have been an unbelievably good friend.
i can't believe you're going.
i can't accept it.
i wish that time would just slow down.
i don't want 2010 to ever come.
and i wonder, when you leave, will you change?
will you forget me?
will i just be that girl, the one that made you listen to her troubles, and told you all her secrets, made stupid little promises, and trusted you with all her heart to keep them, that you will bit, by bit, forget about?
please don't forget me. i will never, ever, ever forget you.
you will have left a deep impression on my heart, while you leave me, to go chase your dreams.
and the worst thing is, this is only my side of the story.
carla, stop being so selfish.
he wants to leave. every second longer he stays here, hurts him.
i know.
i want his pain to go away.
i want mine to go away too.
so i should just ... let him go.
don't pull him back, don't make him hurt anymore than he does now.
i'm so sorry. but i just can't handle this.
i love you so much. x
