long time no seee.
hello hello! i haven't blogged for like aaagesss, so i decided to take some time for it todayy. :)well, a lot of things have happened since my last blog. i mean, a LOTTT. i've gone on like 50 emotional rollercoasters, not sure whether i've grown emotionally, or become even more emotionally distraught after. see, yesterday i had a lot of sad & wise words to say, but because BLOGGER WASN'T WORKING, i had to keep it all inside. i'm not patient enough to handwrite it, you see.
BUT, currently, life isn't too bad. i'll brief you!
my friends are sweeter & more supporting than ever. ngaw, you guys are greeeeatt. sometimes, you guys are so sweet, and comforting, and i can cry just thinking about you all. sometimes i know i can be crazy, and totally ridiculous, and ask stupid questions, but i love it how you still stick by me. i love the way you can cheer me up, and make things turn around. i love you all SO much, life would not be the same without you guys. i love the crew. <3
YOU. hopefully you know who you are. you're confusing me. you make me smile. you make me cry. you make me happy. you make me sad. but sometimes, i just really want to know what you're thinking. are you trying to make me hate you? because that's not going to work. i care about you too much. but gosh, sometimes you scare the shit out of me. please, please, please, don't lie to me. i hate it when you do that. and i hate it when i can't tell when you're lying or not. and sometimes i don't even know if you give a shit about me. because i definitely do about you. and when you leave, i will miss you. so much. x
him. oh, goshy. i don't even know how i feel about you. i mean, i know i definitely still like you. a lot. a whole, damn, lot. but do i want you? i've been asking myself that question for the past few days. dammit, you're so hard to figure out. sometimes i'm so confused about you. there's so much that i feel about you, but it's just so hard to write it down in words. or even SAY. sometimes, i wonder if you'd ever find out. and i ask myself, if you did, how would i feel? and the answer? i don't know. i don't have that long. a year isn't that much. what do i do? help me out here. i like you. i like you. please see it. x
i love you all.
carla. x
