forever
okay, so i have to finish my previous post about the dance.eric proposed to brandon ... quite eventful, hahaa. " will you marry me ? " " FUCK NO ! " they have a beautiful relationship, really ...
and then, a perverted cockroach ran under my legs. like, brandon yelled out COCKROACH and i jumped up and started screaming. which is pretty much typical me. and i swear, i saw it like another 3 times that night. eric said it had a crush on me. i agreee !
dragged eric and brandon to dance. alrighty, eric's pretty likeable til he starts dancing. i mean like, jumping up and down, hahaha. quite funny.
me, gen and aidan went to hideaway and talk. just talked. night time makes me sentimental. like, if i'm looking up at the stars, i just feel so .. insignificant under the sky, you know ? and it makes me more emotional ... and caring ... so the most truthful time of the day is the night. if you get what i mean.
i spent a lot of the remainder of the night crying. which is ridiculous (not for me, though.) i swear, so many people cried that day. like, around 5 or 6 ? gah, that moment in the hall was so ... emotional. i felt so safe, and so cared for, and just, happy, but sad. you know ?
two special songs, a photo, and memories.
i can truthfully say that it wasn't an unenjoyable night. would i relive it ? maybe.
i miss you.
carla x
