do you believe in love ?
hiyum ! buh, i laugh at that greeting. :Lokay, so it's 1:21 PM, i've been sitting here for about 2 hours ... fb'ing, stalking, af'ing. but i like to call it " working ". so it's all good, yes ?
NO. i am so, sick of my procrastinationising, i am so sick of getting sick of NOT getting my way ( is that vaguely understandable ? ), and i am SICK of HURTING. friday was horrible. horrible-est phone call, horrible-est news. and oh yes, have i mentioned that i really, really, really dislike cheltenhams ? with their butt ugly pink uniform. but that's not my point.
everything that i hoped for, is like, gone. i'm trying to find a tiny shred of hope i can maybe cling onto, but there's nothing. i've gone through stacks of memories, trying to reassure myself, but nothing. sure, i'll find something, but wonder if they were all empty, and fake. i don't need this type of distraction. and i don't know how to explain. it's hard to put thoughts into words. much easier to put it in music.
and me, being me, have gone on a ... binge internet - ing. i've been going through SO many websites to try distract myself. and i'd just like to post up one pic of my finds ...
innit pretty ? " do you believe in love ? "
" it's love, not santa claus. "
carla x
