hello.
hello, omg i haven't posted for AAAAAAAAAGESSSS, feels like a gazibillion yearss D:gah, my life is a tad retarded right now == it seems like i haven't got a goal. like, you know how you're meant to have a goal to work towards ? well, i don't know WHAT my goal is. it's like .. do well in school ; buht that seems so ... vague. and that's like EVERYONE'S at the beginning of the year. i don't know. i'm a bit mixed up.
noo, i'm actually very mixed up. it's like i have like double personality. one side, i'm trying to be more forgiving, and i'm trying to ( keyword : TRYING ) be more loving, and be more appreciating of, like, pretty much what i have. and who i am. the other side, i'm just getting easily annoyed, and just bugged about EVERYTHING. i've been getting honestly, very, very annoyed at little, insignificant things. i mean, i get annoyed at myself. but, i can't help it. i'm just so .. irresponsible. and when i'm angry, i say things that i don't mean. and omg, i just spit out cold, hurtful words. i sometimes really can't stand myself. but it's not just me. and i'm so unbelievably SELFISH sometimes.
i can hardly even begin to TRY understand this comprehensible thing that is my life.
anywho, getting onto a slightly more positive note ( keyword being SLIGHTLY. like SLIGHTLY SLIGHTLY SLIGHTLY ) i'm completing my MATHS HOMEWORKK. :D i mean like YAYYY last year i didn't even bother LOOKING through my maths book, and now i'm all like - must finish maths hw. - and when i finish i get that like, full - proud - feeling. ehehehehe >D
right, so right now i'm like in love with jonas, esp. joe. i know you're all going to be like WHATS WRONG WITH YOUUU and everyone's like D: JOE'S SO UGLYYY buht nooooooo he's so cute. :) and oh man jonas is sooo funnaeeeee. kevin makes me and elaine like BURST out laughing. >D ehehehehehe. and they're such epic singersss.
i'm having like white song obsessionnn. :D which is uncommon. i'm kind of obsessed with vesper's goodbye by nick jonas & the administration, and also hero by sterling knight. :) and i mean like TY and creds to gen for sending hero to meeee x and sterling knight ; HE'S ALEX IN 17 AGAIN ! the guy that's his " cousin ". ngaw. he's quite cute. buht like epic smile lines. : /
anywhooooo ; status of love life ? zilch, zero, nup, nada, nothingaaaaaa. buh.
alrighty, must go. i'm outie !
carla x
