when heavy wings grow lighter,
hey.i bought pringles today. i missed them so much ; i haven't had them for like 3 years. original rocks.
man. i'm in a strange mood. it's like random .. and i feel like deleting my blog. and starting a new one. cos this one is just so .. ;boaijweoj;fawjeifaj;wefoaf. i feel like deleting all these memories. because i don't exactly want to remember them.
i wish that i never rushed into that. because that was such a mistake, and now everything's just ... confused. but it feels like i'm making the same mistake again. just. full speed ahead, no thinking.
i need to stop. and think. what am i doing ?
i wish i could just curl up, into a ball under my blanket, and sleep forever.
no. that's too extreme. i wish i could curl up into a ball under my blanket, and sleep til tomorrow morning. because i'm crazy tired.
what on earth am i doing. at school .. i'm okey, you know ? but when i get home .. it's like.
yeah.
ugh. you know, when your mind is empty ... how someone just immediately pops up ? yeah. it's like that with him. oaiwjhgio;awehgawefjaiowefjaiowefa fhawefha. and i know, it seems like ... AGAIN !? but yeah. that's just me.
irrational.
as per usual.
and you know what else ? i can keep other people's secrets okay, but i can't keep my own for shit. whenever i have issues, i can't seem to solve them myself. always have to rely on others. but this time, i'm going to try be independent. because you know, it feels like none of my friends seem to have as many problems as i do. apart from a few, bah. and like .. it always just feels like i'm troubling them. and it feels like they're always ... like .. AGAIN ?! carla's got problems again ?!
so yeah.
owl city is actually making me feel a bit better. thank you, adam young (:
band tomorrow. i don't want to go. too effing cold.
ohwow, i actually do feel quite a bit better.
anyway ...
bye.
